iv. 'I just want to die'

I realized while I was talking with a friend today

that I say that 'I want to die' a LOT.

To clarify, I don't actually want to die,

it's just that when something is too overwhelmingly amazing,

or cute?

it feels like I'm having a heart attack

or that I'm about to explode

from overexposure to cuteness

and I'd just rather die.

For example: Ah, Meghan,

this baby owl is nuzzling my arm and I just want to die.

In other (more relevant) news,

one of my students, Erica, was sick for weeks

so my 4 year olds made her a card.

It's amazing what they're capable of :)

And to tie all of this nonsense in:

My students are so cute I want to dieeee.

iii. New title. New goals.

After 선영's wedding~

1] This past weekend was my first experience singing at a wedding and this will sound weird to people not in Korea, but for my second Korean wedding, it was surprisingly lovely. Being a typical Korean wedding, some of the unfortunate expectations were fulfilled, but it was... I don't know how to explain it in a blog.. just really good. Skype or call to know more :) I'm very thankful to 선영 for asking me to sing and totally in debt to Brett Chesney for playing piano so beautifully (and so last minute!).

2] Before recently, I was really preoccupied with thoughts of being unfulfilled. I had the opportunities to do such great things when I first got to Korea that I got greedy and wanted more. I had all these grand accomplishments in mind but for the wrong reasons. And I didn't even realize the mindset that I was developing. And even worse, I had let people affect my ambitions and allowed my joy to be robbed. But, I'm so so so thankful for grace and love that is always so present and evident in my life. I thank God that anything, absolutely EVERYTHING is redeemable. And that life is beautiful.

3] I changed the title of my blog because of some important realizations that I made. I will always invite people into my life, but I've come to believe that my friends' involvement with me in Korea is not about something to be invited to. Korea is no longer an event that has happened and will finish. It is part of my road less travelled that is never ending and always changing. And blah blah blah I guess you'll have to keep reading to find out what happensss

Ok! Enough for now. Bye, and happy Movember!

ii. Wow.

So, I work a lot and I work hard, but it's been worth it after I've completely fallen for my kids. I teach 14 four year old Korean cuties and it's been SUCH a joy. I laugh every single day and sometimes they do such adorable things that I just want to die. Can you tell from my gushing that I just love them??

One great thing about my job is we'll do different trips or activities which are actually pretty interesting. We've had pajama day, cooking days, field trips, and holiday parties. Almost everything I do with my class is stressful since they're so young and there's so many of them, but we manage and always have a great time. Here are some pics of my babies that make my Monday-Fridays go by so fast...

:)