XXIII. Procrastinating.

Currently: in a PC 방 (internet cafe) in 강남 listening to Kpop on web radio and correcting a bazillion essays from my students. Fun times. UGH. If I go blind, I'm blaming Korea >.<
But. My feet are tapping so at least the Kpop tunes aren't half bad.

ANYWAYS.

Updates.. updates.. hmmm. Really, nothing really new. I've been involved with a North Korean church which has been cool. It's been challenging me to study Korean.. by how discouraging it has been to communicate. Not only am I a beginner, but North Koreans speak so differently, so even the easiest phrases can be misinterpreted. Regardless, I've managed to connect with some ladies and hopefully will be tutoring them (in English) soon. Woo!

As far as work, I dread it. Two words: oppressive negativity. I feel like I'm in a tangled web that I was thrown in. I'd rather be eaten by the hungry spider, than to keep up with the hot mess (and I HATE spiders). We need Truth. Thank goodness it's not my battle. God, it's yours. :} Just help me to love. And to forgive! I have a hard time trusting people now :/

On a positive note, it's helped me to see the hot mess that is MYSELF. I really need God to fill me up and help me love. I used to think it came so naturally. People would say, "Aw, Lisa, you're so loving blah blah blah"... BS! Only God gives us the ability to show real love.

I've also realized how much I appreciate true fellowship and people who aren't afraid to be themselves (or OF themselves) even if it's not a pretty sight. I miss authenticity in people. It's hard to find in Korea. Everyone's got a guard up (but for reasons I understand).

Anyway, that was my vent sesh. Don't worry, it's over.

Oh wait. One last moment of honesty: it's hard for me to keep in touch with everyone! I'm trying with my two blogs and facebook, but other things like mail, Skype or phonecalls are difficult. They were more possible before when I had lulls in work/life, but the lulls are no more. So again, I apologize a MILLION times. Please don't take it personally if you don't hear from me. I love each of you SO much and if I didn't have to work, I would spend all my time with you. Really.

Mkay. Back to work. Everyone around me is laughing at the games they're playing. I'm not laughing..

:]

Love,
Spin it like an LP